I Was Never There

Album

My Dear Melancholy

Label

XO

Genre

Alternative R&B

Duration

1:00

Composer(s)

Abel Tesfaye;Gesaffelstein;Adam Feeney

Entered Chart

Apr 14, 2018

Peak Date

Apr 14, 2018

Released

March 30, 2018

Recorded

Unknown

Catalog #

XO Digital (Republic)

The Weeknd recorded this synth-laden track for My Dear Melancholy. The EP focuses on the R&B singer's emotions over the ending of past relationships. Here, The Weeknd resorts to copious drugs and mindless sex to numb the pain of his heartbreak. Ooh, now I know what love is And I know it ain't you for sure You'd rather something toxic So, I poison myself again, again 'Til I feel nothing As with the rest of My Dear Melancholy, there is speculation as to whether the song relates to The Weeknd's past relationships with model Bella Hadid and/or singer Selena Gomez. Dear Melancholy's only feature is techno artist Gesaffelstein who produced this track and "Hurt You." The French DJ is best known in the hip-hop world for his co-production credits on Kanye West's Yeezus tracks "Black Skinhead" and "Send It Up."

What makes a grown man wanna cry?
(Cry, cry, cry, cry)
What makes him wanna take his life?
Ah, oh (ah)
His happiness is never real
(Real, real, real, real)
And mindless sex is how he feels, ooh, he feels

When it's time, when it's time, when it's time
It won't matter (it don't matter)
It won't matter (matter)
When it's time, when it's time, when it's time (time, it's time, babe)
It won't matter (it won't matter, babe)
It won't matter (yeah)
It was like I was never there
(It was like I was never there)
It was like he was gone in thin air (no)
When it's time, when it's time, when it's time (oh, baby)
It won't matter (it won't matter, babe) it won't matter

When it's time, when it's time, when it's time
It won't matter, it won't matter
When it's time, when it's time, when it's time
It won't matter, it won't matter
It was like I was never there
It was like he was gone in thin air
When it's time, when it's time, when it's time
It won't matter, it won't matter

(When it's time, when it's time, when it's time)
(It won't matter, it won't matter)
(When it's time, when it's time, when it's time)
(It won't matter, it won't matter)

Ooh, and now I know what love is
And I know it ain't you for sure
You'd rather something toxic
So, I'll poison myself again, again
'Til I feel nothing
In my soul (in my soul)
I'm on the edge of something breakin'
I feel my mind is slowly fadin'
If I keep goin', I won't make it
If I keep goin', I won't make it

And it's all because of you
It's all because of you
It's all because of you
It's all because of you
Whoa, whoa (when it's time, when it's time, when it's time)
Don't you, baby, hey (it won't matter, it won't matter)
It won't matter, baby (when it's time, when it's time, when it's time)
Don't you know? (it won't matter)
Don't you know? (it won't matter)
Ooh, oh, hey
(When it's time, when it's time, when it's time)
(It won't matter, whoa-oh)