Numb Little Bug

Album

Egg in the Backseat (EP)

Label

Republic Records

Genre

-Pop

Composer(s)

Nick Lopez;Dru DeCaro;Em Beihold

Entered Chart

Feb 12, 2022

Peak Date

Jul 16, 2022

Released

January 28, 2022

Recorded

Unknown

Catalog #

Republic

Los Angeles-based singer-songwriter Em Beihold's breakthrough came in 2021 when her song "Groundhog Day" went viral, receiving over 20 million views between TikTok and Instagram Reels. She followed it up with "Numb Little Bug," where she reflects on her struggles with depression and anxiety. On the surface, everything in Em Beihold's life seemed hunky dory. With the success of "Groundhog Day," all her dreams of becoming a popular musician were coming true. However, Beihold was on antidepressants to treat her heavy anxiety, which made her feel disconnected from the world around her and a little tired of life. She compares her feeling of being unhappy, but not wanting to die, to "a numb little bug that's gotta survive." "Everything I wanted was happening, but somehow I didn't feel anything," Beihold explained. "I felt numb. Songs weren't really coming to me the way they used to. The antidepressants sucked the soul and energy out of me a little bit. I wrote 'Numb Little Bug' about the feeling." Em Beihold wrote the song with: LA-based singer-songwriter Nick Lopez, who has also written with Demi Lovato, Omer Fedi, Dixie D'Amelio, and Marc E. Bassy. Musician and producer Dru Decaro. The lead guitarist for R&B artist Miguel, his other songwriting credits include Pop Smoke's "Demeanor," and Khalid's "Retrograde." Dru DeCaro also co-produced the track with Elijah Hill and Dallas Caton. Em Beihold and her producers went through about 14 versions of "Numb Little Bug" before hitting on the right formula. "We tried one version that was straight pop, and then we tried another that was more acoustic, but they didn't feel like my sound," she recalled to Billboard. "Then I brought 'Numb Little Bug' to Dallas Caton, and he nailed exactly what I wanted for it."

I don't feel a single thing
Have the pills done too much
Haven't caught up with my friends in weeks
And now we're outta touch
I've been driving in L.A.
And the world it feels too big
Like a floating ball that's bound to break
Snap my psyche like a twig

And I just wanna see if you feel the same as me

Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die
Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive
'Cause you gotta survive
Like your body's in the room but you're not really there
Like you have empathy inside but you don't really care
Like you're fresh outta love but it's been in the air
Am I past repair

A little bit tired of tryin' to care when I don't
A little bit tired of quick repairs to cope
A little bit tired of sinkin'
There's water in my boat
I'm barely breathin'
Tryna stay afloat
So I got these quick repairs to cope
Guess I'm just broken and broke

The prescriptions on its way
With a name I can't pronounce
And the dose I gotta take
Boy, I wish that I could count

'Cause I just wanna see if this could make me happy

Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die
Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive
'Cause you gotta survive
Like your body's in the room but you're not really there
Like you have empathy inside but you don't really care
Like you're fresh outta love but it's been in the air
Am I past repair

A little bit tired of tryin' to care when I don't
A little bit tired of quick repairs to cope
A little bit tired of sinking
There's water in my boat
I'm barely breathin'
Tryna stay afloat
So I got these quick repairs to cope

Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die
Like a numb little bug that's gotta survive
That's gotta survive