Peak
54
Weeks
6
Score
284
Chart Year
2023
The video was directed by Patrick Tohill and NF. It begins with similar shots switching back and forth from the perspectives of a young girl and a woman, both feeling unloved and unwanted. It shows adults arguing and the child being left alone. Towards the end of the video, it slowly starts flashing happier images on the screen, culminating in the child smiling for the first time in the video.
“HAPPY” is the fifth track off of NF’s fifth studio album HOPE. In it, NF discusses how he finds comfort in his agony filled life. He believes he wouldn’t know what to do with himself if he ever was truly happy. He also discusses his fear of asking others for help with his issues. He acknowledges that he has insecurities, inner demons, and traumas, but doesn’t feel comfortable trying to fix them.
[Verse 1] Dear God, please Hear me out, I know it's been a couple years Since I've reached Out and said hello, I bet You're wondering Why I keep Obsessing on and stressin' all the little things When I should be Living life and soaking up the memories I know I've been selfish, I have No excuse to give You, it's true Hanging by a thread's how I live I don't know why, but I feel more comfortable [Chorus] Livin' in my agony Watchin' my self-esteem Go up in flames, acting like I don't Care what anyone else thinks When I know truthfully That that's the furthest thing from how I Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine Who I'd be if I was happy [Verse 2] Yeah, been this way so long It feels like somethin's off when I'm not depressed I got some issues that I won't address I got some baggage I ain't opened yet I got some demons I should put to rest I got some traumas that I can't forget I got some phone calls I been avoidin' Some family members I don't really connect with Some things I said I wish I woulda not let slip Some hurtful words that never shoulda left my lips Some bridges burned I'm not ready to rebuild yet Some insecurities I haven't dealt with, yes I'll be the first to admit that I'm a lonely soul And the last to admit I need a hand to hold Losin' hope, headed down a dangerous road Strange, I know, but I feel most at home when I'm See NF Live Get tickets as low as $40 You might also like CAREFUL NF & Cordae MISTAKE NF MAMA NF [Chorus] Livin' in my agony Watchin' my self-esteem Go up in flames, acting like I don't Care what anyone else thinks When I know truthfully That that's the furthest thing from how I Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine Who I'd be if I was happy [Bridge] Don't know what's around the bend Don't know what my future is But I can't keep on livin' in— [Chorus] Livin' in my agony Watchin' my self-esteem Go up in flames, acting like I don't Care what anyone else thinks When I know truthfully That that's the furthest thing from how I Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine Who I'd be if I was happy [Outro] (Oh, oh, oh) (Oh, oh, oh) If I was happy (Oh, oh, oh) (Oh, oh, oh) If I was happy
| Week | Chart Date | Position | Points |
|---|---|---|---|
| 1 | Apr 22, 2023 | 54 | 72 |
| 2 | Apr 29, 2023 | 87 | 39 |
| 3 | May 6, 2023 | 91 | 35 |
| 4 | May 13, 2023 | 92 | 34 |
| 5 | May 20, 2023 | 95 | 31 |
| 6 | May 27, 2023 | 100 | 26 |