Peak
16
Weeks
2
Score
305
Chart Year
2023
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This is a track from Taylor Swift's third studio album, Speak Now. Taylor apologizes in this song about the way she messed up a relationship with a former boyfriend who now finds it hard to trust her. Taylor admitted to E! News the song is dedicated to an actual person to whom she had done wrong. "It addresses a first for me in that I've never apologized in song," she said. "The person I wrote this song about deserves this. This is about a person who was incredible to me, just perfect to me in a relationship, and I was really careless with him." Many of Taylor's fans believe that the song is referring to American actor Taylor Lautner, whom she dated briefly at the end of 2009. However, even though the singer is happy to pour out personal details in song, she is remaining silent on just who is the recipient of her apologies. "It's such an interesting little quirk," Taylor told USA Today. "It's like, 'Obviously, you're writing songs about your life and you're almost admitting to these things.' But when it actually comes time to talk about them in an interview, I get pretty shy and coy about it." The song's music video was directed by Yoann Lemoine, who was also the man behind the lens for Katy Perry's "Teenage Dream." The chilly clip finds Swift contemplating the best way to apologize to a former lover, played by male model, Guntars Asmanis, for breaking his heart. Footages of the school and baseball stadium were filmed in MacArthur Park, New York, while scenes with Swift were shot in an old country mansion outside of Nashville. Lemoine told MTV News that he wanted the video to be simple yet metaphorical: "I wanted to work on the coldness of feelings in a very visual way, playing with the snow, the distance and sadness. [Taylor] really liked it. The winter theme was very interesting to me - the snow, the ice. I even wanted the guy to go swim in frozen lakes at some point. It was not possible, but I wanted to translate how you feel sometime when your heart is broken. The snow in the apartment is supposed to show how connected she is to him. He is outside, in the cold, but somehow she is connected to him." As for Asmanis, both Swift and he agreed that he was the perfect fit for the part. "I wanted a boy that was fragile and beautiful. I didn't want to go for a hunk or a perfect cheesy boy that would have killed the sincerity of the video," Lemoine said. "I just imagined a face that would enhance the fragility of the video. We did cast a couple of boys and both Taylor and I loved Guntars." Taylor Lautner confirmed that the song was inspired by Taylor Swift's relationship with him during a 2016 Facebook Live interview promoting the 2016-17 season of Scream Queens. During the clip, co-star Lea Michele grilled him on his past relationship. "You dated Taylor Swift, I remember that," she said. "Didn't she write a song about you? I think it's something about a sweater and a hat, right?" "That's what she does. She writes songs," replied Lautner. After Michele struggled to remember the track's title, Lautner confirmed, "It's called 'Back To December.'" As part of her project to re-record her old albums, Taylor Swift released Speak Now (Taylor's Version) on July 7, 2023. The album features new versions of all 14 songs from the original Speak Now, as well as six previously unreleased tracks. One of these new songs, " I Can See You," came with a music video starring Taylor Lautner. By letting Lautner play a big part in the video, Swift proves she doesn't have bad blood with all her exes.
I'm so glad you made time to see me How's life, tell me how's your family? I haven't seen them in a while You've been good, busier then ever We small talk, work and the weather Your guard is up and I know why Because the last time you saw me Is still burned in the back of your mind You gave me roses and I left them there to die So this is me swallowing my pride Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night And I go back to December all the time It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right I go back to December all the time These days I haven't been sleeping Staying up playing back myself leaving When your birthday passed and I didn't call And I think about summer, all the beautiful times I watched you laughing from the passenger side And realized I'd loved you in the fall And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye So this is me swallowing my pride Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night And I go back to December all the time It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine I'd go back to December turn around and change my own mind I go back to December all the time I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right And how you held me in your arms that September night The first time you ever saw me cry Maybe this is wishful thinking Probably mindless dreaming But if we loved again I swear I'd love you right I'd go back in time and change it but I can't So if the chain is on your door, I understand But this is me swallowing my pride Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night And I go back to December It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine I'd go back to December turn around and make it all right I'd go back to December turn around and change my own mind I go back to December all the time all the time
| Week | Chart Date | Position | Points |
|---|---|---|---|
| 1 | Jul 22, 2023 | 16 | 110 |
| 2 | Jul 29, 2023 | 76 | 50 |