
Peak
24
Weeks
2
Score
299
Chart Year
2023
The angst of social anxiety roars in “ballad of a homeschooled girl,” the fifth track of GUTS. The garage rock cut delves into Olivia’s struggles to socialize and fit in with her peers. The song’s title alludes to the common albeit faulty notion that homeschooled children are socially stunted. The nostalgic lyricism describes the social fumbles of her adolescent years: tripping, stumbling on words and making simple mistakes. When speaking with Rolling Stone, Rodrigo revealed that she named this track after Bob Dylan’s “Ballad of a Thin Man”.
Verse 1] Cat got my tongue And I don't think I get along with anyone Blood runnin' cold I'm on the outside of the greatest inside joke And I hate all my clothes Feels like my skin doesn't fit right over my bones So I guess I should go The party's done, and I'm no fun, I know, I know I know, I know [Chorus] I broke a glass, I tripped and fell I told secrets I shouldn't tell I stumbled over all my words I made it weird, I made it worse Each time I step outside, it's social suicide It's social suicide, wanna curl up and die It's social suicide [Post-Chorus] Ah, ah, ah [Verse 2] I laughed at the wrong time, sat with the wrong guy (Uh-huh) Sеarchin' "how to start a conversation?" on a website (How to flirt?) I talkеd to this hot guy, swore I was his type Guess that he was makin' out with boys, like, the whole night (Oh) Everythin' I do is tragic (Oh) Every guy I like is gay (Oh) The morning after I panic (Oh) Oh, God, what did I say? (Oh, oh, oh) [Chorus] I broke a glass, I tripped and fell I told secrets I shouldn't tell I stumbled over all my words I made it weird, I made it worse Each time I step outside, it's social suicide It's social suicide, wanna curl up and die It's social suicide, yeah, when I'm alone, I'm fine But don't let me out at night, it's social suicide It's social suicide [Post-Chorus] Ah, ah, ah Ah, ah, ah [Chorus] I broke a glass, tripped and fell Told secrets I shouldn't tell Stumbled over all my words Made it weird, then made it worse Each day that I'm alive, it's social suicide It's social suicide, wanna curl up and die It's social suicide It's social suicide, don't let me out at night I'm shocked I'm still alive, it's social suicide [Post-Chorus] Ah, ah, ah [Outro] Thought your mom was your wife (Ah) Called you the wrong name twice (Ah) Can't think of a third line (Ah) La-la-la-la-la-la (Ah) La-la-la-la-la-la (Ah) La-la-la-la-la-la (Ah) La-la-la-la-la-la, ugh
| Week | Chart Date | Position | Points |
|---|---|---|---|
| 1 | Sep 23, 2023 | 24 | 102 |
| 2 | Sep 30, 2023 | 66 | 60 |